Mari Bermuka Buku

Dah lama nak buat entry ni sebenarnya tapi asyik postpone je. Actually nak tanye readers ( if any la ), do you comfortable accepting your family members in Facebook? Bukan ape. It just because I don't feel comfortable at all. Rasa macam very expose kalau mereka ada. It's not like I have some huge crush on someone (opss!! :D ) or have any big secret pun, eh..but who doesn't right?. I'm sure all of us have our own dark little secret. I know that Facebook has a security system that you can choose according to your preferences but still, I'm feeling uneasy. Sekarang ni pun ade a few pending friend request from my cousins. Nak ignore je tapi rasa bersalah so I left them pending. Huh tak baik kan? :( 

I think family and facebook is a big no-no, although I did add my two sisters but that's an exceptional. We are close so we do feel comfortable with each other.

Oh, another thing, kenapa selalu ada strangers atau orang yang kite tak pernah kenal pun boleh request to be a friend with you ? Bukannye nak berkenalan pun lepas accept tu, yang betul-betul nak berkawan lain cerita. Agaknya nak meramaikan friends je kot. Agaknya cool la ada friends that reach thousands which I doubt she/he know all of them. Memang la konsep Facebook ni friends network but do you really need to add someone that you does not even know just for fun? 

Anyway, if any of you add me in Facebook, do let me know ya!. I just need to know who are you before accept the request.

p/s : pelik la tulis dalam bahasa melayu, skema semacam je

Of Some Serious Matters

It's been quite a while since my last post. My brain seems to be stuck and I rather read someone else blogs instead updating mine. I know, same lame excuses Haha.

Ok peeps, back to serious matters. Lately, I've been 'bombarded' with 'cepu mas' questions by my uncles, aunties and some friends. " bila nak tunang?" , " dah start keje nanti, boleh la bertunang " , " bila nak kawen? ", " dah ade pakwe? " bla bla. I know they means well but sometimes it broke my heart since I'm beyond standard age of getting married set up by my family which is 24 years old.  And I, a year older.

Most of my extended family member ( mum's side ) married at the age 23 or 24 years old, in other word married in early 20's. Some of them had their first kid at the age of 24 and I even have a cousin that married during undergrad study. And I seems nowhere near it, not even close to it. I wish that I can explain to them that it's all comes down to 'JODOH'.  

Meanwhile from my dad's side, most of them got married in late 20's or early 30's or not marry at all. Yes, I have an uncle and an auntie that still single and they are reaching mid 40's ( I think ). They never ask this head throbbing question to me (yet), maybe they kinda understood how it feels. 

My best friend just ended her 5 or 6 years relationship with her ex-bf  ( duh!..obviously ) due to her ex-bf suddenly got engage with another woman. My sister ( not blood related ) ended her engagement with her ex-fiance after discovered that the-stupid-fiance cheating on her and choose another woman over her. They had been in relationship for 6 or 7 years ( if I'm not mistaken ) and being fiance-fiancee more than a year, planned to tie the knot around May or June. 

Due to what had happened around me, I am getting more self cautious and extra aware that anything can happen no matter how good you plan it to be. How long you are in relationship with someone is also not a guarantee that he/she is the one. Again, It's all comes down to " JODOH " thingy.

For this time being, I'm seriously not ready to take another step forward. Not now. I don't know how to explain to others. I think I need to take things slowly, let it go with flow and it's very important that I'm not forcing myself over this so that I'll not stress myself out. Maybe my family thinks that I'm too old to take my own sweet time. Haha. I'm just sweet 25 years old for god sake. 

Btw peeps, how do you know that your other half is meant for you? Any signs? or you just know it..( ade ke orang nak jawab? =p )

Toodles everyone..

p/s: oh my..my english getting worse..camne nak amik exam ni tsskkkk..btw, just ignore any grammy grammar mistakes ya uolls

Gotcha!!

This is what I found this morning while browsing through my facebook. I can't stop smiling everytime I read these. So, I thought of print screen and upload it here. Most of you might not understand because they talked with their own weird language (sometimes). Both are my younger sisters, arguing about which one of them that my mom love the most and how much they hate being far from home. I used to felt that way when I was undergrad. Always homesick and felt alone. I also used to watch movies, TV series and Korean dramas although assignments were piling up and tests were around the corner (crazy haha!). Oh, I miss these moments.

Dra*g Qu*een In The Making.. T___T

Last few days, I picked up my convocation pictures from a frame shop. I was thinking to get white or black frame. It's more classic and timeless ( from my point of view la ). Unfortunately there were not many choices and I was too lazy to search for another shop. I just picked one out of all samples whish is a wooden frame. But then, it's not a big problem for me since I can always custom-made buy another frames.

My BIG problem is I do not like my convocation picture. They ( the official photographer ) edited too much on my face and I look very 'plastic' in the picture. I don't think I will hang this picture on the wall. Too bad. *sigh*

The bottom pic is quite ok. Not that pretty but at least I'm not look like a dra*g que*en. The one that I hate don't like is the 1st one. Too much shading on my nose and cheeks. Maybe they think that I look chubby and does not own a perfect nose. *sigh*  (Still in denial mode~) T___T

Now I regret for not having a studio photoshoot. The result may be better and I can force everyone in my family to join. If you notice, I have been nagging a lot lately. Hehehe..Blame my hormone for being such an a**. (oh dah pandai curse dalam blog yer!!)

Toodles~

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Hari ni pagi-pagi lagi mood dah tak betul. Dapat sms from a friend dan another rejection. Sedihnye tuhan saja yang tahu,  sampai nak menangis!. Hati ni dah macam shattered into pieces. Tak ada rezeki sungguh.

Sabar..

Lain kali jangan berharap sangat..

//mulut manusia memang tak leh tutup, cakap tak fikir dulu perasaan orang..

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Am I ready to leave my comfort zone?

I'm scared....A lot of things bugging me today..

Help. I need help. Please.